Ciao Amici, come stai? Me.. I have been here, there... as of late; it seems everywhere. In the midst of my travels, I have succumbed although not without a valiant fight, to the flu. I am not here today to gripe about my ailments however to share a thought..
As I was traveling the last week.. I spent a lot of time in airports, on airplanes, in hotels, in restaurants and the overwhelming chatter from person to person had a common theme...chaos.
Chaos either from work, school...children or spouses... finances or budgets... bosses or lovers... but none the less chaos. I am certain you have your own.. my hope is that it is manageable and your days are not overrun by it. Chaos cannot always be avoided and that is not what struck me as peculiar in the varied conversations... what was odd was how often I overheard someone say..'If only I were.... (insert celebrity, idealistic fantasy world or utopia of your choice)' That...struck me as odd.
I am not perfect.. I am far from perfect quite frankly. I have my idiosyncrasies, my compulsions, my neurosis... I suppose I would say I am 'perfectly imperfect'... my husband is a dream in every sense of the word and our finances are fine... I can shop as if it were an Olympic event which puts my budget near catastrophic levels at times, my health... good; with the exception of this nasty bug... unforeseen expenditures? Sure... doesn't everyone have these? If you have anything with a warranty.. that warranty will expire and tada! You have your unforeseen expenditure. Weight... a few pounds from my ideal...Hair...it needs a cut and a color... Boss doesn't nag me although a few colleagues do... my ups, my downs...my in between's.. sure, it can be chaotic at times but I will share something with you... there isn't a person in the world I would rather be...or a person I would rather share it with... for at the apex of my chaos.. is life. My life... the life I have built with my husband...in our home... and whether it is calm, chaotic... burning at both ends... it is ours...and that mi amici... is what makes me...me...and yes, I find comfort in my chaos.
Remember my friends.. for every pound you think you are overweight...someone envies your figure.... for every dollar you feel would make a difference in your budget...there is someone in need of a dollar to feed their family... for every debate you have with your spouse...someone goes to sleep missing theirs wishing they were there to debate with... for every overdue bill.... well, not much to say there...but the point is... your life is yours it includes the good, the bad, the ugly and the hairy... wishing you were someone else won't make your life any better.... it will only make the journey less sweet...chaos is a beast when if fed with more chaos will create a vortex of uncontrollable circumstances...all you can do is find your happiness amidst the chaos and once you do...happiness will certainly find you.
Ciao amici... xo
